Still here

Damn, it's been almost 4 months since my last post.

As you may have guessed, that's not a good sign.

In these four months, I have slipped in terms of porn probably at least 50 times, had one erotic massage, and once had sex with a prostitute. Not very good going then. I have been trying to avoid it more, but man it's difficult.

To make matters worse, my GF seems less and less interested in sex or doing anything sexy. I've been trying. I spoke to her about it again. She knows it's a major issue for me and I really feel like I would be able to kick my bad habits if I just got some at home, but in the last four months I don't think we've had sex more than 10 times.  I've also been putting in a lot of effort to give her more attention, do more of the home work so she has more time to relax, etc., but to no avail. She hasn't once worn a sexy thong, or a tight top, or anything like that. She's never in the mood. There's just nothing.

On top of that, my infatuation with her little sis is growing. She's a really pretty girl. Not the hottest body in the world, but I love the way she dresses. She likes wearing boots, she likes showing some cleavage and I've caught a peek of a stringy thong underneath a few times. But she does all this in a very stylish non-slutty kind of way. I absolutely love that. A bit sex appeal with a lot of style. REALLY turns me on.

Anyway. It's been a bit more than a month since my visit to that prostitute, and since then things have gone a bit better. I guess it does help to get it out the system for a bit, but I cannot keep going like this.

Not sure what to do at this stage, but will try checking in here a bit more often.