A mixed year

Wow, can't believe it's more than a year since my first post here and more than 8 months since my last one!

Time sure flies.

So I thought this would be an appropriate time to look back over the past year and do a bit of a review.

As for my sex addiction, it's still going pretty strong, although I've had mixed success with keeping myself in check.

In terms of porn, I'm much better. Not doing it nearly as regularly as I used to, but still finding it impossible to resist once in a while. I used to really struggle to go for even a few hours without checking something out. This caused me to lose a lot of productivity (I even surfed for porn while at work, which just seems crazy now). At the moment it's more like once every 3-4 days. So that's real progress. On the downside I've developed a new fetish that I don't think is very healthy namely cuckolding, especially involving big black cocks and hot wives who openly flirt and fuck black dudes in front of their sissy husbands. Just typing that gave me a hard on. Sick shit.

In terms of cheating, I'm much better too, in that it happens less regularly, but I'm still doing it once in a while. Last occasion was with a lovely prostitute at an upmarket establishment near me about a month ago. She gave me the best blowjob (without condom) that I have had in years, perhaps ever. She even swallowed. Fuck I love that! I normally wouldn't allow a hooker to do anything to me without protection, but she was gorgeous and started with so much enthusiasm, there just no way I was going to say no. Before that, my last real cheat was the one I mentioned in my previous post (i.e. about 9 months ago). Once or twice a year ain't horrible and I think probably less than half my average over the last 10 years.

In terms of the crush on GF's younger sister, I'm much better. It was just a little crush and she no longer does much for me. Still pretty and I don't mind taking a peek when she bends over in a low cut top, but that's about as far as it goes. No real current infatuations of this nature. There are obviously plenty of girls that I think are hot, but nobody that stands out at present or that I'm overly obsessed about.

Still frustrated though. Still struggling to get through to my GF that I need a whole lot more. Still not getting nearly enough from her, but trying really hard. I've been putting in a lot of effort to help around the house and with household admin etc. Before she used to complain about having to do too much of the housework etc. I'm getting less complaints now, but it hasn't had any impact on our sex life. She seems to spend a lot more time on her phone with friends and family and playing games. Also very frustrated at present with her habit of working on her laptop in bed. I will often make a point to wake up early and bring her coffee and breakfast in bed, only to find that when I get back to the bedroom she's started working. This also happens quite often when I make a point of going to bed early (I tend to want to sleep later than she does).

There you go. That's my review of the past year or so and my current rather sad state of affairs. Still trying hard to control my sexual urges better without becoming completely asexual.